Damn! This is the 4th time I'm writing for this week..Seems like I have so many things on my mind! I am tired and bored right now. Glad that today I managed to so something productive (I'm so obsessed with productivity lately). Let's see...chatted with him, chatted with an old friend, read a few books, studied, watch the 4th season of Gilmore Girls...And now, I am tired. If I'm tired by the end of the day, then I'm happy cuz hopefully I can sleep well.
I get distracted easily lately. Maybe because I miss that someone so much. Went to watch Batman yesterday and missed a couple of scenes cuz I was in my imagination. He appeared in my mind out of nowhere. It seemed so real I almost cried during the butt-kicking scene of the movie. Because of that, I had to Wikipedia the movie plot to understand the storyline. Pretty stupid.
Just now while I was studying, at that particular paragraph, I 'saw' him...We were at my house, happily married by that time. I just came back from work and he was watching tv cuz he's off for the day. I slumped right beside him on the couch and complained about how tired I am. He brushed my hair and promised to take me out for dinner...Seems real huh? When I finally realized that I was actually staring at an article for my presentation, I almost cried. Hmm..I don't know if it's homesick, because I'm kinda used to being away from him. And the thing that I imagined was not our past, but future (which I don't know if it's gonna turn out real). Guess I need to see a therapist cuz I am almost crazy...
I am just gonna merapu so ignore me. Don't even bother reading this blog. Go away.
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