Spring Break 2009!

Yep, it's spring break!

I didn't have any plans to go for a holiday this time around. I have shit loads of work to do. But I do want to get out of the city for a day some time this week to get some fresh air. So I might join my roommate and her bestie to Woodbury. Shopping bebeh!

Okay, I have something on my mind that I need to spit out so here we go.

My mom has been nagging to me about weddings and such and it annoys the hell out of me. I keep having to lie to her about my true feelings because I don't want her to fantasize anything or having any plans about my wedding. Honestly, I do want to get married soon but that decision is not entirely on me. I have my significant other to consider. If he's not ready, I'm willing to give him some more time. At this current situation, with being us so far apart and with me being in school, there's no point talking about wedding/marriage. Obviously, discussing something important like this on Skype won't do it.

I think I am physically and mentally ready to get married but I'm not ready to manage a family. I so want to live with him in the same house and sleep on the same bed right now, but to have a family with kids running around in less than a year after the wedding, no. I need more time for that. And you know how parents are being parents, and relatives being relatives, 3 weeks after your wedding night they'll start asking if you've got yourself pregnant. Oh how I hate that. Even if it's 3 years after the wedding, if you and your husband decide not to have children yet, it's your right to do so. But will families and relatives understand that? No! They'll keep asking and start to accuse you by saying," Tak reti ke??" (meaning don't you know how to make make love) WTF?!! My friend made a point when she said that, once you have children you'll have them forever. But that chapter of your marriage when it was just you and your husband, is not going to stay forever. So cherish it while you still can. And once you are ready to have children, you can give birth to the whole soccer team for all I care!

Sometimes, I hate being an adult (maybe at this age). There are so many things to think about. Life is not just you and the world, but people around you as well. There are so many things to consider. Hmmph.