Closure

Don't be mistaken, this post is not gonna be my last hehe..

I've got this thing that has  been bugging me about a certain someone who is supposed to be an important person in my life, but at times I wish she's not!

How would you feel when your marriage life is 'dictated' by someone who does not have a great marriage herself? Annoyed, right? At times I can be patient as my husband says 'do not fight fire with fire' but that'll make that person gets her way every time! And with me being defensive, sometimes I just want to give her a taste of her own medicine. But when that happens, I'm being accused of not 'jaga hati' or thankful after what she has done for us (which I did not ask her to do so).

I'm not perfect, period. But at least I admit that and try to improve myself to be a better person, most of the time by listening to people's advice. But what if you have to deal with someone who thinks that they're perfect and therefore think they have the authority to boss you around, not willing to listen but expect others to listen to them? My mom has been telling me to be patient, pray a lot cuz God knows what He's doing, just leave everything in His hands. True, but at times I flipped because it keeps happening. Sigh...

I often feel guilty and horrible after my ranting about the injustice that happens and promise not to talk bad about her anymore. But when it keeps happening, I can't contain myself. At times I feel like I'm just like her when I flip and God forbid I do not wanna be like her.

So the reason I'm writing this is to put and end to whatever misery about her. I hope God will give me strength, patience and show who is right or wrong some day (soon I hope).