Randomness

I began 2011 by re-reading my favorite motivational book by Marci Shimoff called "Happy for No Reason" just because I kinda ran out of money to buy a new one, been eyeing this one book but cannot afford at the moment hehe. I skipped the first few chapters and went straight to the part about "happy & career". As I mentioned in my previous post, I'm kinda looking for a new project for extra income but has yet to find any. So reading the book kinda keep my hopes up.

Work has always been crazy and it will stay as crazy as ever. I'm not talking about how busy I am or because of the huge amount of workload. It's crazy that everything is so unorganized, so political, so inefficient, so menyusahkan-orang-lain, and the list goes on...I hate complaining like this all the time, but I don't have the guts to turn things around either at the moment. It's actually very demotivating.

But one thing that I love about my work is the educating part. That book has once again opened up my heart to just keep doing what I do best, that is to teach. Last year, I was very demotivated thinking that I'm stuck at 'that little corner of the world' and not progressing, and not doing what I've always wanted to do, which is to be out there 'doing it' in the music industry. I was feeling down all the time knowing that I'm not 'walking-the-talking' and felt very much left behind compare to those who made it into the industry. I wanted to turn my life around but had no clue of how to do it. I was desperate.

But, because of that book, I feel like there's still hope. I chose to teach because it's the choice that 'I make' in my life. Just this morning I told my students that in music 'you make the job, whatever that may be'. I was surprised myself to hear such words coming from my mouth and I saw a glimpse of hope in their eyes. As for me, it was be best feeling ever (I was trembling at that point). There are things in life that I'm not willing to tolerate such as not having enough time for my family, having foreign person taking care of my family, you know stuff like that. Therefore, having a 9-5 job is perhaps the most suitable job for me, although I hate to admit that hehe.

But of course, I'm not being complacent. 2011 will hopefully be a better year for than 2010. I'm really hoping to be doing something extra to feed not just my mouth but most importantly my soul. Amen to that.