Sigh...

I knew that something wasn't really working since the first time we had that rehearsal. A huge part of me was telling me to just back off and move on. But I tried to be professional and went on with it. But today, I regret that. I should have bailed out since the first day.

I have never really acted like this before. I've always love making music, love coming to rehearsal, love meeting people from the industry, love performing. I'll give full commitment when it comes to rehearsals and stuff. But lately, I've been feeling as if I was forced to go for rehearsals, as if this wasn't something that I wanted. Well, I still want to make music, I just don't want to be in this project (more like I don't want to be with you). I came for rehearsals just to maintain a good reputation. Well F**k reputation now!

I'm gonna go with my guts. I can't put rehearsals above my family, especially on a special occasion. And not when you said those harsh words about my parents. So, I hope that either we'll be kicked out of the show or I'm just gonna bail.